Swirling around in my mind
When you hit my bloodstream I go insane
Swimming in my veins, working up towards the surface
A constant reminder of what will never be
I love it.
There's comfort in your eyes but,
Your smile is torture, agonizing, aching
Taunting me to come undone
I love it.
The ever-growing tension
Your touch brings me to my knees
Lying in the dark, the pressure will not ease
Heavy on my chest, trying to breathe under water
I love it.
Time won't fix this
The past can't be undone
I'm left looking for the question,
To an answer that has come and gone.
I hate it.