*More accurately, my mentor told them to not make it so that I didn't know what was going on. But that is what they did.

Here is what happened with the people at the library: one of the guys was trying to hint me into telling him about 'if there was something in my past that should be brought into the light.' And he made a reference to the girl speaker, and said that he had liked her, and thought she was an awesome woman of God, but that they had talked, and spoken about how nothing could happen between them. And then someone said something on the way out, that was exactly what someone said about me and Michelle, having met people from my school, at a party. It was someone from my school, who took me to the party that I met Michelle at. And I have already said what happnened at Journey.

These are examples as to how most indirect communication is witchcraft, manipulation, and control. I had already repented of everything in my past. My walk with the LORD since He came back to me in 2002 was of repenting of the present. And I repented of everything, as I was going along. There was not anything that was unrepented of, except what I was doing in my present walk with God. Journey had stopped meeting with me concerning any kind of counseling because of thinking me to be complicating things, and not going forward in working and bearing good fruit, and they also thought I had a problem bringing up the past. I had been meeting with my mentor weekly usually and also corresponding with him over email. He also had told me that I was being minute about things. But that wasn't the whole word about what was going on. It is a lie in the church that people just have their sins taken away by the cross, and then go bear good fruit because of His life. This is something that Paul does talk about, about us being predestined for good works. But the Spirit, is not in just 'letting go.' That is new age. The Spirit is in giving beauty for ashes, and commanding light out of darkness, and creating things which do not exist as though they did. This takes love. Simplicity also says to let go of the details. To let God take care of the spiritual, and to go forward and work in the physical. Again, these lies, are close to the truth, also being spoken of in Scripture, but they are not in the Spirit. I was being faithful in the little, and everyone was trying to get me to run ahead so that I wasn't a burden. And I wasn't burdening people in any way that was out of control. I also barely had anyone to talk to. And my attempts at help were not overboard. What happened, was that people didn't see me having the same beliefs about 'letting go and letting God,' and so they believed I was not following God. But what does the Bible say? The Bible shows that the passover lamb was to be eaten with bitter herbs. And this is what James says:

James 4:9-10
Lament and mourn and weep! Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up.

People have made the cross out to being dying to sin, which it is, but according to 'letting go.' Instead of working out salvation by walking not regarding sin in the heart. Because born again believers have perfect insides. And so working out salvation means finding out what happened when there was sin, and working through it, to bring forth what should have, could have, and would have been. Simplicity, and new age, is the movement, that is 'feely' good, and leads into just 'letting go.' And this leads into humanism, which is based on everyone receiving according to what their works are. Namely, what their flesh allots them. People who regard sin in their insides, have a much 'simpler' walk, but it isn't in Spirit and truth. Therefore the double vessel. And therefore Babylon, which is founded by mixing. And therefore the depths of Satan, which is thinking that we are sinners and that that is the way it is. And therefore the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, which is walking as if our sins are gone, without regarding being inwardly perfect. In walking in being inwardly perfect, there is much more severity, and the whole counsel of God. Along with the fear of the LORD, which leads into true love and life, and the Spirit. Therefore the power and kingdom of God. Therefore the inward man. Therefore not being a white washed tomb. Therefore true humility. Therefore the new creation. I was looked down upon, because I was lamenting and mourning and weeping, and did not have the physical fruit everyone wanted to see. But what did they do? Did they love? No, they made it so that I didn't know what was going on, and made it so that if I didn't, it meant that I wasn't right with God. And they tried to set me up so that if I didn't know what was going on, then they would capitalize on me. Granted, not everyone who doesn't know that born again believers are supposed to have perfect insides have fallen away. Some people are saved, though they do have ignorance. And nearly, if not all of everyone, has ignorance somewhere. But not everyone calls themselves faithful in God's house, and judges and condemns others, to the point of them falling away.

"Letting go and letting God" is new age. And it is also false divinity. What is going on, is that people are wailing for Tammuz. Yes, the passover lamb is to be taken with bitter herbs, but the end of those who call themselves faithful in God's house, who undo faith, as to having perfect insides, fall away. This is the basis for those who say that we should be meditating on 'resurrection power' and His life, instead of what I call 'gracefully condemning' ourselves, by not going past the cross. Tammuz was in Hell, according to the tale, and they were wailing for him. And I believe that this is the foundatin of sand, that sets up the "Christianese" I was talking about. Things like "God is good all the time, all the time God is good." There is a balance in the Spirit, that has it's equity in not regarding sin in our insides. Thus Paul speaking about weeping with those who weep, and rejoicing with those who rejoice. Christ entered in, and overcame through love, and laying His BODY down. Not through physical works. Works do not save, though they are present in faith. Why is it, that works are regarded in the church as if being the basis for salvation? Is it that God changed after having salvation be by grace, and His gift of faith? Yes, people confess, with their mouth, Jesus, when they are saved. It is that the work of confessing Christ brings salvation, as it is an action, but that the way we know if anyone is really saved, is through having physical materials? And so when I enter in, is it because I now have a building, or an organization, or people are following me, or in agreement with me? The Bible says that we confess, which is an action UNTO salvation. This shows being a vessel. This means that we are not saved by works, but by grace. This means that the way to God, is through seeking Him, and being spiritual. Not through the works of our hands. What are the works of God? Believing in Him. Therefore the fruit by which we judge, if we judge rightly and through the Spirit, is judged in the Spirit. What is the work of my body that I am doing when I confess Christ? Whether I am walking, or running, or sitting, or standing, it is not the action that saves me, is it my faith in God, which is manifested through whatever my body is doing, as the grace is perfected, in the action of what the Promise is. Therefore I believe, and I speak. Therefore my work of faith, is that I ask, when I believe. Therefore Jesus carried His cross physically, but I carry mine, as I am being spiritual, and walking in the Spirit, in all that I do. Though I might not be physically carrying a cross. What are the requirements for good fruit, by which the Bible says we know those who are with us, and are not with us, if we must judge? What are the requirements of entering in? Is it not love? And according to Hebrews, we are to still walk spiritually, even though we may never on this earth see the things we hope for, though by faith we believe in them. And walk, not sacrificing the Promises, though we might be able to profit in the world, and even have good showings of the flesh, and in whatever name, even claiming God's. James in talking about works perfecting faith, was specifically talking to people who were saying they had works, but were not actually loving. And John spoke about this too. Reading the Bible in graceful condemnation and false humility can lead into religion. Though freedom, and grace, and living for God, is what is being declared. When Jesus said "Not My will be done bt Yours" it means that He could have just chosen to go do something else. But He chose not to. Also believing in Promises, and despising the shame of the rejection, humiliation, and suffering and death, for the joy set before Him. He freely, in love, chose that, even though He didn't have to. Individualism, which is having the strength of one's hand, which is spoken of against by God in Isaiah 57, is the doctrine of demons. And that doctrine says that we 'get' to follow God. In that condescending manner. Like we should be happy with what we got, and go have good works. And call this contentment, and humility, and being profitable. Being saved, is not rooted in "I don't do the bad things I used to anymore." But in love! That is the new creation. Though we have ANYTHING, without love, it is vain.

Therefore why did they come to me the way they did? And indirectly? And treat me the way they did. I had let go of Megan, and was not trying to prepare my way to her, until they came to me. Did they not judge and condemn me, and with full measure, in the things that they did? And did they not also deny, reconciling me, through love; and also pursue loving their own lives to the death? Also sowing to their flesh?