The only experience that I have had with blasphemy of the Holy Spirit came in spiritual warfare. I was battling a spirit, and the Holy Spirit moved, and He moved quickly, and in full knowledge, and I didn't have time to prepare my way, in the oneness of God, before I could come against the evil spirit. I had about 3 seconds to decide what I was going to do, and how I was to agree with the Holy Spirit, and what I was going to believe and confess. I ended up putting my talent in the bank, regarding preparing my way, and to battle the evil spirit, with the things I already had prepared, through believing and confessing what the Holy Spirit had said, though I couldn't really recount it fully. The evil spirit saw what had happened, and when I came against it, it held my accountable to the lack of knowledge that I had, regarding the way that the Holy Spirit had moved, and the preparation that I did before I came against it. With the way that the Holy Spirit had moved, and with what He had spoken being so critical to my overcoming the evil spirit, the evil spirit held against me that I had blasphemed the Holy Spirit, for burying the knowledge that He had given me when He moved, though I didn't really bury it. This didn't effect me, as I fought the evil spirit, until the end of my prayer, when I tested myself, in regards to knowing whether or not I had fully had victory over the evil spirit, or whether it was going to attempt to still hold anything against me, or return. Just as the Bible also says to take heed when standing. I knew that I had not blasphemed the Holy Spirit, but what had happened was enough to still effect me, and the entire kingdom of darkness was still able to take advantage of what happened. The very knowledge of there even being a spiritual accusation of me blaspheming the Holy Spirit was enough for the kingdom of darkness to focus it's attack on me with more accuracy in nearly every thing that I did from then on. When I had done Cocaine, and had said what I said regarding giving my soul to Satan, I repented right after I said that, and I had only said what I said because my words got manipulated, in the middle of battling. We are to take heed when we stand, because as we walk in the Spirit and by faith, everything that we do is crucial. The things that we do, when we are believing and confessing the Spirit and word of God, without the specifics, and the full knowledge of the mind of the Spirit, these are actually what it means to put our talent in the bank, as with the parable of the talents and minas, and this is an example of being brought near to God, but not yet entering in. For example, what David said regarding it being impossible to fully recount all of the LORD's thoughts. Romans 8 does speaks about the Spirit interceding for us, and the Bible also speaks about Christ interceding for us, but if we stand without taking heed, we can fall, and as we battle the spiritual hosts of wickedness, the more knowledge of God that we have, and the more truth that we know, the more we can have victory. And therefore the things that we lack knowledge in, can be used against us, and lead us to death, just as it says in Hosea. And this is why we should test ourselves, so that we do not stand without the spiritual knowledge of God. And though we can not recount all of God's thoughts, we can cultivate so that we are able to possess the spiritual knowledge of God, entering in through the conception of the Spirit and word in us, just as God's word does not return to Him void, but accomplishes what He sent it for. Meaning that there is a chosen promise that He is giving, and though we may not be able to recount everything else that comes along with that, we should still wholly seek Him so that we don't make His word void, in the context of it being void in our own lives. This also showing that though God's word does not return void, but accomplishes what He sends it for, as it says in the OT, that entering in still ensures that we are vessels of honor, and not vessels of wrath, because His word makes His power known even in people who reject Him and make His word void in their own lives.

In these things, I can see how important the knowledge of God is, and the way that we are to worship in Spirit and truth, and be one with Him. But God worked everything out for my good, as He gave me to have good fruit 100 fold, regarding the truth of the gospel, and the communion of the Holy Spirit.

I know also, that at the time that things took place at Journey, regarding Megan, that I had no sins of the flesh, and that the sins in the spirit that I had, had to do with spiritual warfare. It has been very justifying, to grow in the grace and knowledge of God, where I do understand the fine print of grace, and the details of repentance, believing, and confessing, just as I also spoke about how there can even be repentance, beliefs, and confession, regarding things that we have not sinned in, but are being tempted and attacked with. In these ways, the kingdom of darkness has fallen, even when things were on their own terms, just as with the way that Jesus died. There could be an accusation against me, that I acted foolishly regarding what happened with Megan at Journey, and that any sins that I fell into since then are even more so my fault. This accuses me of sin, and says that I shouldn't have walked the way that I did, and believed what I did. However, I know that those accusations are wrong, just as God led me in His Spirit, and used me for His purpose and good pleasure, and that though I fell into sins, these things are not accounted or imputed to me as sin, just as David spoke in the Psalms. And it is in this context that I also have the testimony of what was spoken by Jesus, regarding the way that John the Baptist first came, and then the way that He came, as people said that John the Baptist had a demon, and that Christ was a glutton. This doesn't mean that the sins I fell into aren't evil, but this is the kind of foundation that is present, regarding how I was being led by the LORD. And there are also countless other testimonies that I have given already, but my point is that my position in the LORD, and my shortcomings, aren't accounted to me or imputed to me as if I have fallen away, am not fit to be a lamp of the kingdom of God, or anything along those lines.

I have said before that the Spirit moves moment by moment with us, and that our abiding in God is according to that. Just because God has given grace, does not mean that our relationship with Him is not to be a moment by moment walk, or that we shouldn't expect to PERFECTLY abide in His Spirit. Most Christians believe, as I have said before, that God has allowed us to not be perfect, in the realm of relationship, but that He wants to be perfect in the realm of our works, and this is false. And nearly no Christian believed that it was possible to perfectly walk in the Spirit. The law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus, is that we are to have everything that we are, do, say, and think be fully from the LORD. But the fullness of the ability to do this comes through the truth of the new birth, in which we are born again inwardly incorruptible, perfect, and sinless.

And so I believe that I know God, and that I am faithful in Him, and I know that I have entered in. I possess the type of Christ, within myself, regarding who I am, and I also possess His testimonies. I fully know that I come short in nothing, regarding any other minister of God that has ever lived, though I also know it is not a competition. The gospel that I have received from God, is one in which the complacency of believers has been exposed, as that peace and safety also wished to instill false humility, and to cut off the kind of boldness and extravagant position we can have in God, no matter what anyone says about prophets or apostles no longer existing. False humility is actually a very good foundation for the kingdom of darkness and false light, to be able to stop the magnificent things of the Spirit, and make any kind of marveling out to be people drawing attention to themselves. When this is actually false, as Christ said that He would do greater things so that we may marvel, and He even said that we will do greater works than He did. It is so crucial to understand that no gifts of the Spirit perished with the early church, just as Ephesians also says that we have the gifts of the Spirit, all of them, until we are FULLY mature and grown, into the stature of Jesus. And God has spoken to me, saying that I am the two witnesses, as I have entered in, and have the knowledge of God within myself, of the voice of the bride and bridegroom. I know that I have not taken advantage of anyone, or instigated anything. And I also know that I am not as Lucifer being the one cherub of God, who also fell away, as I have entered in, and as I am the two witnesses. I also believe and know that my gospel, which was given to me by God, just as Paul's gospel was given to him by God, that this gospel is the everlasting gospel spoken of in Revelation. And I also believe that the word that God gave me regarding perfect equity, which I ate, just as John ate the little book in Revelation, is in reference to eternal monogamous marriage in heaven for created beings, just as it also was made up of three verses, one in the middle, and one on either side. And I believe that I may have to wait for the new heavens and new earth for my length of days, but that this also correlates to how John was to preach AGAIN to many people. Though I also know that I fully possess the truth of my inheritance already, in the spiritual knowledge of God, and thus even now, possess my length of days, even before the new heavens and new earth.