What tripped me out about grace, was how it's possible to just say that God is going to do everything for you, and help you to be able to do everything, but then not follow Him when He does begin to do things for you. God told me that He is perfecting my flesh by the Spirit, giving His Spirit into it and making my whole body full of light, so that I no longer sin as John spoke about, which I already had internally, but hadn't received into my flesh until now, after God made it possible through grace. I am not saying "I have no sin," like how John said to not do that. I think John wrote that in the context of 'if you sin, don't say you didn't sin,' which is actually what he goes on to say in the next chapter. These things have been what's bothering me the most and 'handicapping' me from being able to be CONSISTENT in everything I do.

So with this, it means no more cigarettes, which is a God send.

I hope my internship site gives me another chance to come back, and that we can move past these things, after having now worked through them. I won't make a fool out of them. I don't want to go to another site. I'm really not a judgmental or condemning person, or a 'you have to follow me or you're not saved' kind of person. And I don't force God on people and preach doom and gloom like that, or mix myself up in other people's business. I hope everyone can understand what is going on with this prophecy. I can do my job perfectly, and I've never messed up with anything crucial. I was good at technical work while I was in training at school, but towards the end of school I was more and more nervous and distracted and it was effecting my performance, and that is why after just starting at my internship site I changed to just doing the Medical Assistant duties that were non hazardous. I never did any hazardous work on pot or while having side effects from medication. And I can shave my beard, just not everyday.

Will someone please get my back on this, and let me finish this out at my original internship site. I will get your back and finish this out perfectly. I won't let you down.