If she was sitting in the kitchen in the blue dress and he was making spaghetti, then he was wearing an apron and she was barefoot. This means that she was writing on the walls with permanent marker that smelled stronger than the boiling water. This means that she was writing down all of the abstractions she felt were there, and all of the adventures she would not have. If she was sitting in that kitchen in the blue dress and he was making spaghetti, then she had made a decision ten months ago, ten years ago, ten months in the future, she was making the decision right now. As he was making the spaghetti she was making her decision, would be making her decisions, always. The blue flowers on the wallpaper did not exist in the world outside.